“This life is a journey we walk by faith & there will always be the mountains in our way but right here in this moment, may our strength be renewed - as we recall what God has done and how we’ve seen Him move..” — Say Amen by Finding Favour
I may not know how things will work out this year but one thing I do know is – I trust Him. For a few weeks, I was stressed out & anxious trying to determine what I am supposed to be doing this year. Should I return to Exodus? Should I just invest solely in P1M? Should I substitute at MCA? Should I stay home? Should I, Should I, Should I? I really had no idea what God wanted me to do with my life – I had everyone’s opinions but I was uneasy about where He wanted me, where He would be able to use me.
I prayed, I prayed and I prayed some more. God has slowly be revealing what He wants me to do & what He doesn’t want me to do. I really don’t know how things will work out within the next couple weeks but I do trust Him because I know He knows! I finally just rested in the fact that He has in under control — wherever He places me, I will go! I know He will provide & lead me.
I find myself here at peace with my arms wide opening saying “and now what Lord, use me!”
“It’s evident You run the show, so let me back down. You take the leading role and I’ll play the background,”
For the past year, I have been taking part in bible study with a group of woman from all over on facebook. Yesterday morning the scripture we focused on was 2 Corinthians 12:9-10. One of the question that as brought up was “What are some ways God is trying to use you to be a light for your community?”
After reading the passage & praying, I sat for awhile and thought about the question. My answer was:
This is my first week with a week long team this summer & working with high school students can be a challenge. I love it but it isn’t always the easiest – maybe I just have gotten used to working with preK students. A couple months before our team arrives, we do a training with them. We present to them everything that they need to take care of & what to expect when they come to NYC to do bible clubs in the park. This year, I made a packet with all the information they would need to know. I tried to include everything they would need to know, so when they came - everything would just go smoothly without a lot of bumps. Well, I was wrong - things don’t always go as planned. The night before club, I kept asking God to give me strength. I kept telling Him - I need you to take care of this. We attempted to practice bible club the evening they arrived but after being in a car for over five hours & being a group of teenagers in NYC, who would really want to sit inside & go over stuff for bible club? (If I was in their position, I don’t know if I would) The next day, we had a little free time before club and I asked God to help prepare us.. & I asked Him (well, maybe I told Him) to take care of things. I took a deep breath & walked down the street to the park. He is faithful & He took control, club went smoothly for the most part & we had almost 50 kids there!! At one point doing club, I was standing in the back and I looked around - every single kid in that playground was standing/sitting with us for bible clubs. Parents sat on the back benches and they were even tuned in. I realize that God was reminding me that I just had to stand in the background & let Him take control. God is teaching me to prepare & pray — and allow Him to take care of the rest. God is calling me to be the light by allowing me to stand in the background & trust Him. I’ll admit, I can be frustrating at times because I wanted to jump in but God reminded me that as long as I did my work - He does His. God reminded me that Him and I are a team & I am not in this alone. He showed me that by standing in the background - I can be the light. It’s not always easy standing in the background - I like to cover all the little details: I like things to be in order because I want the kids in our park to know and love Jesus. I know that it is impossible to fail because God is there & He is always ready to work .. So, God is calling me to be the light in my community right now by stepping back & allowing Him to shine through.
Three years ago, when I came to Priority 1 Ministries (P1M) as an intern - I had no idea what God has in store for my life.
Three years ago, I never imagined that I would become P1M Children Ministries Coordinator.
Three years ago, I never imagined that those who were on staff would become like family to me.
Three years ago, if you would’ve told me that I would end up living in New York City – I would have thought you were crazy. Three years ago, I decided to answer His call on my life.
My God is an awesome God (although I feel awesome is an understatement, you get the idea) & I am thankful that three years ago – I decided to step outside of my comfort zone. I am thankful, that I finally listened to what He was saying. I am thankful that even though everyone was telling me not too, I said yes to Him.
My life has been flipped upside down & I have been turned around; it is nothing that I ever imagined but it is far better than I could ever imagine.
He called, I answered.
He leads, I follow.
I trust, He provides